![]() ![]() The day of Homecoming rolled around and.the entire day.I wanted to vomit. I wanted to hide under a rock and miss Homecoming all together. She was so confident that I was going to win, but in reality now, I did not want to win. ![]() Even my twin, who is studying abroad in CHINA, was holding it down and got all of the students there to vote for me. I truly had no idea how serious everyone took the elections. People that would have not said two words to me previously, tapped me on the shoulder and tell me they voted for me. Leading up to Homecoming I would have people I had previously passed by on the way to class stop me and tell me they voted for me. I was so overwhelmed, the limelight was definitely not for me. Next thing I know, every Snapchat story is my face, every Instagram story is my face. One of my sorority sisters also had an entire photo shoot for me, so I could make flyers with my face along with my curly hair plastered on all of them. I am not sure anyone actually read my submission but I made sure all 21 of my sorority sisters read it by putting the entire submission in our group chat. Not realizing how many people cared about me everyone voted for me. Not for nothing but I just wanted to be a princess. More than anything I wanted to apply to be Homecoming Queen of Kean University. My failures, my embarrassments, and my low self esteem turned into comedy show and for the time being I was fine. I prided myself on my own stupid moments, because that is what they were.stupid moments. A TV show that would do better than Kylie Jenner's show that only lasted one season. Mostly because I SWORE we could have had a TV show. I loved to make them laugh and in turn make myself laugh. My friends are really the only people that I could be myself around. I still talked to people, made myself known in class especially with my teachers and I slid bye. Yes I was still a little out there but on a much smaller scale. I began dabbling in makeup, sucking in my stomach to look smaller in photos, and holding my head below eye level so attention wouldn't be dragged to me. You think I stayed true to my weird spontaneous self? Nope. I was 13 and I was just happy I actually had people sign my yearbook. "Dear C3C3 (Yes my E's were 3's after a movie I had seen, allowed it to be implemented into my non-movie like life)ĭid I ever read these words for what they truly mean? No of course not. I just want you to be OK, and I'm here to see you through this. If there is anything I can do or not do that will help, you got it. No matter what is bugging you or stressing you, I am here. When are you taking another trip? What are you doing this weekend? What dreams are you working toward? This is more constructive than saying, "life goes on." Yes, it does, but right now I'm upset, and that's OK! 10. I may feel like talking a little, but just knowing that someone is there helps. When I'm feeling down, having a friend's company while we study or watch TV quietly can help my soul get the rest it needs. I am really extroverted so alone time isn't super fun, but I don't necessarily need noise either. I'm the kind of person that needs six and seven. Quiet time is necessary on a regular basis, but it is especially helpful in sorting out whatever is bothering you. They may not need any feedback, just judgement- free listening. They need to express what they are feeling as words and process them out loud. Sometimes people just need to talk things out. This is not so much to make them "look on the bright side", but just getting them to smile might help their mood out. Hey, remember that time?īring back a happy memory. Having someone offer to take what they can off your hands can give your mind some clarity in which to process the situation you're dealing with.Ī pep talk never hurt anyone. They can clutter your mind and weigh you down. Can I take something off your plate?Ĭan I do your dishes, pick something up from the store, or do any other little task for you? Sometimes even the tiniest and most mundane tasks seem really annoying when something is bugging you or you're upset. ![]() Sometimes a distraction is good for the soul especially if it involves your favorite things. Get your favorite food or coffee? Watch your favorite movie or show? Go for a walk? Do whatever it is that makes you happy or we enjoy doing together? Just knowing that someone loves you whether it be significant other love, friend love, bro love, or just regular hey you're a human kind of love, is comforting. This applies to anyone in your life who may be feeling down, and it does not have to be sappy or anything. If you say it, mean it, but really, these little words can go a long way. ![]()
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